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I'm so fucking fed up with modern reality and internet. (Overthinking)

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   So the time has finally arrived... After 7 whole years of enrolling in college... with an animation major, a graphic design minor with a Bachelor's Degree in Art. This SHOULD be my year. The time I will be getting a job. I will improve my portfolio, work on my graphic designs, animation and show the world how great I am as an animator and a person.   If only it's that easy...  TLDR: I cannot stand modern social media and reality anymore. Ever since late 2025, I turned anti-social and my anxiety worsens after an incident in 2025. I'M NOT DEFACING OR DISCRIMINATING ANYONE. JUST GETTING THIS HUGE ANXIETY OFF OF MY CHEST. "Me posting on my various social medias and networks only did nothing but made me ponder. Is it even worth it posting on other social media sites anymore...? Am I just doing all this failed promotion for nothing...? Is it even worth branching out to other social media indie or corporate...? Or are all efforts futile? Is social media now all just ghos...

IMO, Competitive Play has Ruined Pokémon and other modern Pokémon grieving

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  Yes, you read the title right. Feel free to argue. I started to care a bit less about Pokemon since the outrage of Ash losing the Kalos League back when  XY131  first aired in Japan. This caused to me not buy Pokemon Sun or Moon or even the Ultra versions. Honestly, it's a shame because the Ultra Games actually look appealing as better versions of Sun and Moon. But to be fair I don't have the money to spare to buy it, and I got better things to do than play games. After Sword and Shield's annoucement that not all Pokemon will be included in the game even within transfers (Personally, I don't mind it. With a monster roster getting bigger and bigger, it's eventual that they'll have to not include all the Pokemon anymore. I mean Digimon never included all Digimon in a single game before because there's no many to choose from). I heard from one of the reasons they are cutting the Pokemon Roster is for competitive. It doesn't stop power creep from seeping t...

The Aquablade11 Requiem within my deepest regrets:

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 Before anyone can read this, PLEASE understand I am not anti-LGBT, especially anti-trans whatsoever. I am an individual-born female, diagnosed with Aspergers and Autism, who wishes she is a boy sometimes while I struggle with my life issues especially periods. I respect the saner individuals who openly expresses themselves regarding their headcanons and sexuality. I just can't stand the extremists or the politics that kept popping in my social media feed. Especially the war related ones.  Regardless, please do NOT harass her to continue Sunrise, or upload the Bidoof-locke or   any of the videos on Twitch which still has the Feraligatr symbol (Twitch has a storage limit sadly). In regards. This post is also convinced by Requiem of Cyngus Destroyer. Cygnus Destroyer/LJN Defender is a video game reviwer from the golden era of Youtube, but late 2023, they nuked all channels and social media. Requiem of Cyngus Destoryer: https://mikechimeri.com/2021/03/06/requiem-for-cygnus...

I wish he was my boyfriend

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 Whenever I feel lonely, I mostly think of the fantasies I’ve had with the characters from my solo fandom. The one particular man I desire to have as my boyfriend? It’s no other than this pretty dragon boy. Yeah, he may be fictional but he's real in my heart.

What to do.... What to do... Stress

 I just have my meeting. It's just terrible and short. My parents assigned me and believed I can be good with graphic design and thus suggested me I should take a career in Computer Science. I tried to talk to teh advisor in a meeting. But I feel nervewrecked. I tried to get these courageous words slipped through my mouth. Nothing. I just got too nervous and told her that I don't know if Im still interested in programming. Programming is the top grossing job in the whole universe, but it's very complex to understand what they mean. Especially for a girl who can't wake up and kept falling asleep no matter how much green tea consumed. Wha will I do...